I’m really bad at making New Year’s Resolutions

Which is only made super obvious by the fact that I am posting this in the evening on the 31st of January.

But, I’m still making some resolutions and that’s what matters right?

Last year, I made a half-hearted attempt at making New Year’s Resolutions and that was mostly because I know that every time I make a resolution, I never follow through.

So, this year, I’ve decided to make New Year’s Resolutions that are a bit easier to fulfill; resolutions that I know I can keep and ones that I would be happy to keep.

My resolutions this year are going to focus on me. They are going to resolve around learning how to love myself. Because if you can’t love yourself, then everything else in your life will continue to be a tad haphazard. And I don’t want that.

Resolution #1: My Blog

My first resolution focuses on this blog. When I started this blog back in October, I had been toying around with the idea of what I wanted my blog to be about. And then I came to the obvious conclusion that my blog could be about anything because it was my blog. I told myself that I should/would try to post to this blog once a week.

Once. A. Week.

What was I thinking?

I set the bar a bit too high. Maybe I was over excited about finally following through on my older New Year’s Resolution to start a blog (see a pattern?).

So, I’m going to set what is probably a more realistic expectation: to post at least once a month.

By posting once a month, I will be sure to keep my blog going. It is not going to be something that I leave on the wayside. That is not something that I want to do. And if I find something that is worth posting about, I will do it. And then, if that means sometimes I post more than once a month, well more power to me.

Resolution #2: My Body

I’m going to let you in on a little secret that is probably not so secret.

Sometimes I love my body. Sometimes I hate it.

Not all at once. But you know, you have those days where you look in the mirror and you think, ‘Good Lord. I wish I had/didn’t have (fill in the blank).’ And sometimes you have those days where you look in the mirror and you think you look really good, like ‘Holy Shit I am so beautiful. I would date myself.’

I love those days.

So I guess this resolution is about loving my body. I want to cook good food and I want to eat a bit healthier and perhaps I’ll start taking hikes or walking my dog or signing up for soccer. Something a bit more active with no intended goal of losing weight but with the intended goal of feeling good and loving my body.

It’s definitely about loving my body. I tried calorie counting for a month. I was really good. I had an app on my phone where you entered what you ate and how many calories it was and if you exercised you entered how much you burned and somehow, based off your current weight, it gave you like a daily calorie intake or something like that.

And I hated it. God, I hated it. Because it was so specific. Like a piece of cheese was this much and oh shit if I had some french fries there goes most of my allowed calories for the day.

Maybe that’s fine for some people. But not for me.

If I’m craving french fries or some “guilty bad food”, then I’m gonna eat it. End of story.

Resolution #3: My Writing

I guess this resolution ties into my first one a little bit but focuses more on my other writing side projects that I want to get back into. I have a little journal where I scribble down story ideas, everything from a very vivid dream I had to something on the wide world of the Internet that inspired me somehow. I even have the beginnings of several stories and short pieces that can be expanded from my college and high school classes.

I want to write.

But lately (and unfortunately) for some reason, I have been…unmotivated. For a lack of a better term. And I want to change that. Because writing (and reading) are my first true loves. They make me happy. And I want to be happier this year.

And so, my writing resolution is this: to set aside at least 15 minutes a day specifically for writing. It won’t have to be about a specific story or character (although more personal brownie points to me if it does) just as long as I put a pen to paper or fingertips to keyboard and something is created.

Resolution #4: #TreatYoSelfThursdays

My last resolution, I think, is probably the one I am most excited about. I’m not sure why. Maybe it’s because this resolution sums up the theme of all of my resolutions: that this year is about ME.

Every Thursday, I resolve to treat myself. I can buy myself something sweet, something small, something big, something cheap, something expensive. I can cook a meal. I can cook a snack. I can read. I can write. I can do a puzzle.  I can lay around in my PJ’s and watch TV. As long as I am treating myself in some way, it counts.

And then, as my generation is wont to do, I will share my actions with the world on my Instagram, Facebook and Twitter with #TreatYoSelfThursday.

Maybe it will catch on. Maybe it won’t. Whatever. I don’t care.

Because as long as I am doing something for myself, I make myself happier.

And that’s going to be my theme of 2015.

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